something's making me irritable these days, which consequently, makes me irritating, i believe. i guess it's lack of sleep; somehow i feel that my one week hols have not arrived and i'm still waiting at the stupid bus stop where the bus has jus passed and will never come again. i hate this feeling of moodiness, of lack of patience that i once possessed in vast quantities, if i may even put it that way. it makes me like some grouch. well, that's your point anyway, isn't it. it gets to the point where i find myself annoying. and i think i'm repeating myself again and again here, like some non-fiction book translated over and over again by different people into more or less the same thing. bah, what am i saying. i've begun to take my feelings down in chinese, trying to use the language that can be so simple, where a word or phrase can actually encapsulate alot that i want to express. learn to appreciate it if u call urself a chinese. anyways. im gonna go watch phantom of the opera!!!my tian. thanks to seeda, hope nth crops up on tt day. choi.

sometimes i wish to be alone...alone with someone (no one in particular), walking down a quiet stretch, just thinking. silent thoughts. which thought isn't silent, you say. oh yes. that's silly of me. it makes a difference, knowing that someone else knows you and lets you be. whether silent, moronic, idiotic, downright irritating, or just moody. without asking those irritating, probing questions that just makes your mind whir with impatience. and perhaps, someone who will just hold you and tell you that whatever it is, things will be alright. which brings to mind, however unromantically abrupt this may be, those NATO (no action talk only) people who promise so many things, but when it's time to redeem your gift you find that it did not exist to begin with. shut up, empty talkers. you don't deserve any sympathy.

but empty talkers, are talkers, after all. they find ways to thaw your hardened heart, turn it into plasticine to be moulded whichever way they please. yuck. go away.

bah. time to sleep.
i'm so glad tmr's saturday.
so, so glad.